It's Been A Long Week

My grandma passed away on Sunday. I got a chance to say good-bye to her last week. We knew it was coming. In a way, it was a relief because she'd been suffering and watching her decline was hard to take. Mostly, I was happy that she was out of her pain.

I gave a speech at her funeral about what she meant to me. I was happy to do it. But, I slapped it together in an hour. If I had more time, I feel like I could've done a better job. I'm probably just being hard on myself. Giving that speech took all the courage I had. Well, not courage. But, strength. Yeah, strength. It was hard. 

However, now it's starting to sink in that she's not around. I can't call her if I want to. She's gone. And, there's nothing I can do about it. I'd like to think that she's happy now. I hope she's happy. 

However, the silver lining to this all is that I've been lucky enough to have my niece Julianna here with us for almost a week. This is the first time I've ever spent time with a baby like this. I'm so afraid that I'm going to do something wrong when I hold her. But, I gotta say, when she's sleeping on my chest looking peaceful and warm, everything seems ok. I love this little kid so much. And, when she gets fussy, I give her back to my sister. 

Besides that, my friends continue to prove again and again how amazing they are. I just feel so lucky sometimes.

Tonight, I'm gonna see Jenna and I can't wait. She's just what the doctored ordered.

Yessss!!

I freakin' love this show. This is one of my favorite scenes:

CAN YOU IMAGINE

how amazing these shakes must be? I'd split a Shake with MJF. Two people, one straw.

I Love Charlie So Freakin' Much

Would! I wish there was some Web site where I could order a guy just like this for myself.

Here he is dancing.

And, here he is being intense.